*****UPDATE Monday August 14, 2024*****Some disappointing news I have to share about my journey to healing. The virtual Queers Men’s group I joined is going to be obsolete, due to my mentor/transformational coach being called to do in person help/healing. No hard feelings towards him, it just means that I’m going to seek out other healing forms/modalities that may be led by him or some other coaches and healers. On a positive note….in seeking other forms of healing outside the VA, I have strong feelings and interest in sound bath healing therapy. I know I know, ‘don’t count your eggs before they hatch’ is a great saying here. I don’t want to jump ahead of myself, but I see myself staying in this interesting field of various healing modalities. After I find the healing ❤️ I’m in need of, I want to help others like myself find the life changing treatment they so much deserve and are in search of.The Heroic Hearts program was a dead end to me, as I’ve reached out multiple times and after a couple of messages and calls from them, they just stopped communicating. Not sure if it’s because I disclosed that my gender or sexual identity to them that they discriminated against me but it all felt a little out of place for me.First the Veterans Affairs (VA) hospital hasn’t been able to find any type of healing for my PTSD, anxiety and major depressive disorder since leaving service in 2006. I feel like the VA is discriminating against me cause of my gender/sexual identity. There have been some documented issues in my VA chart that will show the discrimination I received from them. I just keep finding myself down this path led by others who have a different end goal in mind that isn’t congruent to the life I want to live and lifestyle I deserve to live. I do not feel like I’m being treated as a valued veteran from the VA and that is why I’m seeking to help myself and heal. With that being said I’m going to rewrite my fundraiser introduction that aligns with what I’m trying to do and why. *****end UPDATE AUGUST 14, 2024*****~~introduction updated August 14, 2024~~Hello and welcome to my LFEBridge fundraiser to help support my journey into self love/healing. My name is Junjun Babauta and I'm an Operation Iraqi Freedom/Operation Enduring Freedom combat veteran. I served in the Marine Corps from 2002-2004 and was deployed to Iraq for 8 months through my first duty station at HMLA 367 Scarface, a Huey/Cobra helicopter squadron. It was in those 8 months that I developed PTSD and have been suffering with this condition to this day. My conditions are so severe that I’m unable to do the things that I was meant to do or live a life of purpose and commitment. I also feel like let my family down by not being an active member of this family by going to familial celebrations, attend church and church gatherings, awards shows, graduation ceremonies, visiting and being apart of my LGBTQ+ communities, family reunions and just everything in between that. I truly am a different person than when I joined the United States Marine Corps in 2002 and I still haven’t found any type of an effective treatment program. I’ve been mistreated by the VA, let down by other treatment therapies, and at times I feel forgotten or like they say ‘fell through the cracks.’ This is me advocating for myself because I just recently turned 41 (I’m not getting any younger) and it’s been well over 2 decades and I’m still in the same position I was when I left the service. I’m still lost and in search of guidance and direction to heal myself or at least be able to manage my conditions. This life of purpose that I feel drawn to seems possible with, breakthrough psychedelic therapy. This therapy has been shown and proven to relieve symptoms of PTSD and depression, permanently. The VA offers ketamine therapy but because of some medications I take, they say that it’s not recommended. They say their worried about addiction, I bark back and say I’m worried that I may not be there to see my parents pass on or that I may not have a partner and start a family, I’m afraid that I’ll miss some of my nieces and nephews graduations from school or college, and be apart of their lives and just be a bright light of inspiration and motivation to them and my LGBTQ+ communities. This is where I have lost all confidence and trust in the VA. Almost 20 years and I’m still slamming down pills and going to the same kinds of therapy with no real medical breakthroughs. Help me help others by finding healing through psychedelic assisted therapy. There’s too much negativity in this world and we need to help each other see that positive light in ourselves and throughout the universe. With your help, I plan on going to retreats outside the United States to countries that have indigenous communities whom are practicing the use of psychedelics not only to heal but also is apart of their culture. They have healers/shamans/doctors, whatever term you want to use, that practice the consumption of these psychedelics and this is where us Westerners come in and see the positive effects of these rituals. This is where I will find that healing and it’s not easy asking for help but I need to ADVOCATE for myself and my life goals. ~~please help me help myself, through psychedelic assisted therapy. If you have any questions about my fundraiser or what this fundraiser is about, please feel free to reach out and message me. Thank you for your time and consideration! Sincerely,Junjun Babauta
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