What would you do if your doctors told you that you were on borrowed time? It’s a question that I’ve had to ask myself and do some serious soul-searching over the last six months for. As most of you know, I had open heart surgery two years ago and ever since then my body has been on a steady decline. I have had several doctors inform me that I have some pretty big health issues that are taking a serious toll on my body.  I was initially I was given a year to live and that was six months ago. Things are not improving at a fast enough rate for my doctors to feel confident that I have more time. So what do you do when you’re giving news like that? You become hard initially. Yougrieve. But then something happens, and you realize that the softer that you become, and the quieter that you allow your soul to become the more peace that you find. And that’s all I want is happiness and peace. You try to build a life that brings you contentment, and you come to terms with the knowledge that the life that you will live is not the life that you were planning for. There are many things that I have to do in order to build this life for myself. Unfortunately, one of them will have to be that I can’t work for very much longer. My body is not handling it well. To my Begich family- I am trying to work for as long as I possibly can to be there with you all and to be there for our children but I don’t know how much longer I can do it for.  What am I doing to prolong my time? I am on a weekly IV therapy regiment, and I am doing a complete overhaul of my diet and medication’s to try and help. So why am I writing this? Why did I take so long? Because I’ve been trying to find what it is that I need in order to find my peace and I have come to a decision. I am going to try and buy a conversion van and live my dream of traveling as much as I can with the time that I have left. And I’m going to try my damnedest to beat the doctors odds but financially I’m not there yet. Medication’s and doctors appointments cost a small fortune and more than what I make now. I’m toying with idea of setting up a go fund me since I can’t work for my dreams. There is no obligation to donate, all I all is that you send out every positive vibe that you can spare as I navigate this hardship. I love you all and I will keep you updated as things progress but I hope that I will be able to see a lot of you when I have things on track.
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