Our friend Ben needs a helping hand.... Let him tell his story: "It never rains but it pours". I've heard this saying all my life, and knew what it meant but never more than the last few years. For those of you who don't know, I've been homeless for the better part of the last few years. Living in my car, working doordash, trying desperately to get out of my situation. Last year, the day before my 50th birthday, my car broke down and I was in it with no way to start it or run the A/C when it was 110 degrees in Vegas. I survived that. I started renting cars from individuals and tried to get back on my feet, but I had to make 140 dollars a day every day just to keep the car, put gas in it and eat. That was not tenable. So with much help from good friends I was able to come back to Clarksville to try again. With more help from another good friend and good person, I was able to get a car to start working again. The car had its issues like all used cars, so it was slow going to try and work enough to get the things on it fixed, but I eventually did. The last thing was the tires which were falling off of it, having already replaced one with the donut tire, I had to be very careful of how far I drove and how much, which made working in it again, slow. I perserved with some help again. I was able to replace the tires, and was on my way to paying my late phone bill, which I was under the impression that I had 4 days to pay it, which would have been plenty of time to make the money to do it, but as my life would have it, I was wrong. I was halfway through my first order of the day with instacart and my phone was shut off (I'm using McDonald's wi-fi to post this.) That was 3 days ago. I never wanted to be a burden to anyone (who does?) but I know I have been to many people. So much so that there are only a few people left who even want to talk to me. I get it and have no ill feelings toward anyone, I can only be appreciative of the help I have gotten. I will say this, if you still have family that cares about you, cherish it. It is not guaranteed for everyone. Family is supposed to help you, friends can get tired of having to. It's understandable. It just hurts me to think there may be people who think I haven't done everything I can to get out of this hole and that their help has gone unrewarded. I can't control what others think nor do I want to. Without my phone I can't work, and getting a job at this point is near impossible since I don't really have the luxury of waiting up to 2 weeks to get paid, also I've been wearing the same 5 ratty t-shirts and 2 pairs of shorts since I got back to Tennessee. Also I have no way to properly groom myself on a daily basis which makes it all the more difficult to get a job. I was finally in a position to really start working without having to worry about being stranded somewhere with a flat tire and no spare, but without my phone it is a moot point. I haven't eaten anything since yesterday morning and I'm really starting to run out of energy or drive to do anything. I'm tired of the Rollercoaster I'm on, of getting something accomplished and then starting from square one again. This is highly embarrassing to write, but I guess embarrassment is the least of my worries right now. I really just wanted to say thank you to everyone who has helped me, and cared about me, and also say I'm sorry I haven't been able to climb out of this hole. It's frustrating to climb almost to the top only to slide halfway back down again. I wish everyone the best and I love you all. Please consider donating to help Ben. Make a difference in his life, as he has made a difference in so many others with his smile, his laughter, his kindness. Thank you, His Friends
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