Hi (: It's Jess! As a lot of you may know, and may have known for a while now, I have struggled with my gender identity for quite some time. I recently, in the last year, have changed my pronouns to they/them, and I identify as nonbinary. I have been working a lot on myself, in learning and getting to understand who I am as nonbinary, and what that means and feels to me. I feel as though I am finally at that part of my life where I finally know who I am, and this is just the beginning. I have struggled with body dysmorphia for as long as I can remember, and it wasn't until just a few years ago, that I was really playing with the idea of what it means to be me. I desired so much more for myself that I considered gender confirming surgery. It was only just an idea, a possibility, at that time, but I craved it. And I knew that I needed to make it happen for myself. I look at pictures from back in high school, middle school, and even grade school, and I knew that that little girl was never happy with her body. Jessica was unhappy, and she didn't even know it. It was always there, in the back of her mind, but it was out of her reach and she was just too scared of change and acceptance, from her peers and even her own family, to make a change. Fear crushed her. My brother died in 2016. It ruined me. "To live and to die another day." Life is short, and it's too short to not feel like you belong. My brother knew who I was when I didn't, and I knew that all he ever wanted from me was to be happy. I want to live life to my fullest, and to love who I am and not what society wants me to be just because of the body I was born with. He would be so proud of me. I am so proud of me. Times have changed dramatically since the early 2000s. Sexuality is one thing, but to tie gender in there was something I never knew was possible and I never knew I could ever change in such a way. But did I really change, or did I just hide for too long? I am proud to be a nonbinary lesbian. I will be getting top surgery within the next couple of months. The date has yet to be decided and scheduled, but I should hopefully have 0 breasts come next year. It's exciting, it's terrifying, it's everything I ever wanted. I know I cannot do this by myself. Emotionally, physically and unfortunately, financially (lol). All donations are welcome. Donate what you can!! All of it matters. Every penny counts, and I am so grateful to have so many wonderful human beings in my life. I have known a lot of you for years, over a decade and even longer, and some of you, I have only just met. Regardless of time, you all mean so much to me and I would love it if you could support me during this beautiful transition. Here's to new adventures! And to finally being me. All the good love. Always. Jess.
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